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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Weddings, Chaos and realization.

 

So today is the day! Tonee is getting married.

I'm more than excited for this girl. She is one of my oldest and dearest friends. I have known her since my 6th grade year. It's insane. I remember running around on the Buckeye middle school playground batting at boys with our purses and screaming loudly. I remember our over-dramatic cries at school dances and the other dramas that are typical of middle school. While I think we always talked about college and marriage ect. when we were younger, I don't think any of us expected that we would actually one day get there; that we felt like it would be forever before we got to this point. I am shocked by how fast we got here. Yet so pleased with it now that it is here.

I think out of everyone I've been friends with, it's her who has kept the most contact with me. While we don't "hang out" on a regular basis, when we do we always have really good laughs and conversations. I'm truly elated for her and Nate. Out of all the weddings I've been in this last year- hers is the one I have most anticipated and looked forward to. I'm sure by the time the wedding starts I won't be able to hold back the flood gates on my eyes. She truly deserves Nate, and he truly deserves her. :)

I guess weddings make me happy.. I'm sure they make everyone happy, but for me it's odd. It makes me remember my own wedding and reminds me how lucky I am to have my husband. While we don't have the best marriage, or relationship for that matter, our love is one of the strongest I know of- and I can honestly say that not once have I ever felt we have "fallen out of love" or loved each other less. My love for my husband has only grown- to a point in which I thought love couldn't go. It amazes me how I can be so incredibly mad some days, but still have this insane love for him. We've been through a lot in the short time we've been married and now that things have finally settled down- we're enjoying everyday.

I'm getting use to the fact that life, marriage, parenting and everyday in general will not go the way I plan. That despite my attempts to elude chaos- chaos will always fine me. I know, however, that as long as I have my wonderful husband, my adoring children and my best friends all will be well. I can enjoy everyday knowing they are here beside me, dealing with similar situations to my own. I find peace in that weird chaos of life. And I hope everyone can find that. If you can find peace and love and learn to enjoy life even in the chaos- all will be well.

I wish you all come to find that understanding.
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