I'm a 23 year old wife and mother. I absolutely love it.
I'm in love with pretty much the best guy in the universe. His name is Jon and he loves me for me- despite my craziness. I never want to be with anyone else. This man completes me. Together we make a great team. Simply put- We're awesome.
Unconditional Love
My kids are also the best. Alexander Nicholas my fiesty five year old who my day would suck without, and Emmalynn Kaylee. My simple and sweet two year old. :) They run around, rarely clean up after themselfs and their listening skills are less than perfect- but I wouldn't want it any other way.
I live in Ohio.. Which is by far the greatest state in the U.S. OF A. We have the Buckeyes. That alone makes us great. I'm an avid Buckeye fan and during football season you can find me at home on game days watching and cheering on the boys. Some of my favorite things are Love, Music, School, Mac and Cheese, Vitamin Water, fluffy blankets, hoodies, snuggling with the hubby, books and hugs. I'm sassy. I can be the kindest person you've ever met, or I can be the meanest. It depends on how you treat me. To get respect, you have to give respect. Learn it, Live it, Love it. I'm funny, emotional, over-dramatic, hyper, nerdy, childish yet too grown up, angry, kind, shy and outgoing.
I'm nerdy and proud of it.
Music is LIFE.
Chamber music rocks my sox.
Disciple, Pillar, This fires Embrace, Underoath, Kids in the Way, 12 Stones, Thousand Foot Krutch, Flyleaf, Skillet, Emery, Big Dismal, Relient K, Day of Fire, Staple, Kutlass, Family Force 5, Demon Hunter, Spoken, Deliverance, Casting Crows, Jeremy Camp, Mercy Me, U2, Coldplay, Cold, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Blink-182, MC Chris, New Found Glory, DJ Mangoo, Dj Skribble, Yanou, BoA, Do As Infinity, Every Little Thing, Ayumi Hamasaki, Utada Hikaru, Yoko Kanno, *Nobuo Uematsu*, Aikawa Nanase, *The Pillows*, ? 30 Seconds To Mars, Evanescence, The Used, Rascal Flatts, Tim McGraw..
I'm more than excited for this girl. She is one of my oldest and dearest friends. I have known her since my 6th grade year. It's insane. I remember running around on the Buckeye middle school playground batting at boys with our purses and screaming loudly. I remember our over-dramatic cries at school dances and the other dramas that are typical of middle school. While I think we always talked about college and marriage ect. when we were younger, I don't think any of us expected that we would actually one day get there; that we felt like it would be forever before we got to this point. I am shocked by how fast we got here. Yet so pleased with it now that it is here.
I think out of everyone I've been friends with, it's her who has kept the most contact with me. While we don't "hang out" on a regular basis, when we do we always have really good laughs and conversations. I'm truly elated for her and Nate. Out of all the weddings I've been in this last year- hers is the one I have most anticipated and looked forward to. I'm sure by the time the wedding starts I won't be able to hold back the flood gates on my eyes. She truly deserves Nate, and he truly deserves her. :)
I guess weddings make me happy.. I'm sure they make everyone happy, but for me it's odd. It makes me remember my own wedding and reminds me how lucky I am to have my husband. While we don't have the best marriage, or relationship for that matter, our love is one of the strongest I know of- and I can honestly say that not once have I ever felt we have "fallen out of love" or loved each other less. My love for my husband has only grown- to a point in which I thought love couldn't go. It amazes me how I can be so incredibly mad some days, but still have this insane love for him. We've been through a lot in the short time we've been married and now that things have finally settled down- we're enjoying everyday.
I'm getting use to the fact that life, marriage, parenting and everyday in general will not go the way I plan. That despite my attempts to elude chaos- chaos will always fine me. I know, however, that as long as I have my wonderful husband, my adoring children and my best friends all will be well. I can enjoy everyday knowing they are here beside me, dealing with similar situations to my own. I find peace in that weird chaos of life. And I hope everyone can find that. If you can find peace and love and learn to enjoy life even in the chaos- all will be well.
[02:38] stalbert: so why do u stay with jon? just curious.. [02:38] Pixel Maiden: I love him. [02:38] stalbert: good reason [02:38] Pixel Maiden: He's the peanut butter to my jelly. [02:38] stalbert: ok lol [02:38] Pixel Maiden: without him this whole sandwich would fall apart. [02:39] stalbert: probably [02:39] Pixel Maiden: He pisses me off.. but I fell in love with him for a reason.. [02:39] Pixel Maiden: some days it's harder to remember why.. [02:39] Pixel Maiden: but.. that's what xanga is for.. I look up entrys from his and my dating days [02:40] Pixel Maiden: My Jon is a fattie.. but me loves him. [02:40] stalbert: good. [02:40] Pixel Maiden: and he makes me talk crazy. lol. [02:40] Pixel Maiden: like the above. [02:40] stalbert lol [02:41] stalbert: it s love it does that [02:41] Pixel Maiden: Yeah. True love. <3
Entry 22: January 23, 2005. *The kind of love-I want. I
want the kind of love where there's intelligent conversations, but
where we can still talk about nothing or stupid things just for fun. Hugs, warm one, especially on cold days. Laughter, everyday.. Hard, happy laughter. Soft, passionate kisses, the kind that bring you to your knees, and leave you breathless. Trust between us both.. Forever. Tender touch, that warms the skin and takes every word from our lips. Romance that leaves a tear in your eye, and a longing in your heart. Passion between us both. A hungry one, that amazes us both every time. Understanding, that we're individual, but in our hearts, one. Unspoken words, that form in our hearts, and will guide us to each other no matter where our thoughts lay. Faith in everything, everyone, our love, and our God. Mostly I want a love that can't be described in words. I want a beautiful escape from reality.
I wanted the above.. I realize now.. I don't have it. I did, once.. and I long for it now. ************************* Where have you gone my lover? What must I do to pull you back to me? Dear lover, my only love... How did I ever lose you? How did I let you escape me...? Lover.. I only long for you.. For what we had. Lover.. Come back to me. Love me like you once did and I promise never to forsake you again. Make me blind to the perils of the world. Make me long not for worldly things, but the pleasures of a higher love. Show me the passions of life and love. Show me the promises of truth. Come back to me. Love me like before.. I will never forsake you.
